My little sister and I use to fight every single night about who got to sit next to my dad at the diner table. My mom would make us switch each day so we both had a turn. And then one day we just stopped. We grew up. My sister and would hook the leash on our dog Buddy and walk to the end of the block and wait for my dad to drive by after work and let us all ride around the block with him. And then one day we just stopped. We grew up.  About a year after my dad died, my mom cleaned out his wallet and gave me a post it note she found tucked away in one of the pockets. The paper was folded the creases thin and fragile, almost translucent. I had written in my best first grade handwriting Laura loves John. And he kept it all those years. 

Some days it is so hard to STOP. Just stop. Because even though addi is only 4 and Easton is one one there are things that one day they just stopped. One day they are so small you hold them on your chest and then they grow up and they are on you hip and then they grow up and you don't hold them anymore. 

Sometimes we need to stop looking so hard for happiness. It is right there staring us in the face. Happiness is a husband that brings you a diet dr pepper at 7:30 a.m.  It's a little girl that tells you that you are her favorite and then gives you a big wink that her daddy taught her.  It's a little boy that hovers at your legs when a stranger is near because you're his home base his safe place. Happiness is all right here.


Boys Boys Boys

Sometimes I worry that Easton will not get the full experience of being a little boy because I have no idea what it is like to have a little boy.  I don't know what little boys do.  I can't wait for Easton to show me what little boys do.  I can't wait to hear his thoughts and his views on the world.  Maybe how to be a little boy is already in him.  I did not teach him how to walk around the outside of the trampoline net or how to climb on top of the water faucet at the dr office.  I did not teach him to take his diaper off and laugh hysterically as he pees on the side of the bathtub.  I love having a little boy.  

Easter Sunday

We had a good Easter.  Easter baskets, church, spending the afternoon with Grandma, eggs and cooking out.  

Easter eggs

I love Easter it is one of my favorites.  Justin was off Easter Sunday this year so nice to spend it together.  Saturday before Easter, J worked so I took Addi and Easton to an Easter hunt.  Sweet little Addi did not get any eggs because she was trying to show Easton how to hunt eggs.  All of the parents that act like a fool so that your child gets a hundred plastic eggs with a starburst in it, you should be Ashamed.  

Date Night

Justin took Addi on a date to the movies.  She thought she was a princess getting to have her Daddy all to her self.  I am so thankful that my kids have such a wonderful Dad.  You can fall in love with your husband all over again when you see him with your little girl.  If you are lucky.



trip to the dentist

I have the cutest patients!


Do you have words that you hate that make you cringe??  Words you don't say??

1.  Panties... I don't wear panties I wear underwear

2.  Lady bits...I have only seen this typed never heard someone actually say it but I would want to punch them in the throat

3.  Stinkin... Nothing is really stinkin cute

4.  Anus...it sounds gross it is gross so just say asshole

5.  Moist...no need to explain this one



We have been trying out a new church for the past month or so. Addi loves going and Easton just cries. I am glad we have been going again. I think we need to be constantly constantly reminded on how to treat one another. I am not sure yet if this is the place we belong but last weeks message was good. We are doing a series on relationships. One point was that you can have a great job be successful but if the relationships at home are off you can not be happy. It walked about boys needing a strong father figure to guide them to become good men and girls needing a strong pure relationship with a man- her father- before she can have a strong healthy sexual relationship with a man.
The biggest point was Love = Time

Love = Time

I am reminded and encouraged each week that I can do better. I can be a better wife, mother daughter,sister, friend, PERSON.